A Talk With GODD!!!!!

Pta nahi rabb se aaj jab maine dua mangi to mujhe ye kyun laga,
Rabb ne mujhse kahaa tujhe uski khushi chahiye ya wafaa,
Maine hass ke rabb se bola wafa to sb mangte hain mujhe to uski khushi chahiye,
Rabb bola fir agar vo tujhe chhod ke chalaa gya to mujhe teri aankhon mein aansu nahi chahiye,
Maine rabb se kaha jis baat mein uski khushi us baat mein meri jaan bassi hai,
uski ek muskurahat mein meri duniya ki roshni sajji hai,
Rabb bola kamliye  kyun itna toot ke pyaar krti hai,
Kyun itna chahti hai usse jiske dilse shayad nikal chuki hai,
Maine rabb se kahaa ye to meri fitrat tune hi banayi hai,
jis bande ko apna maanti hunuske chain mein hi maine apni duniya basayi hai,
Tu to janta hai mujhe fir kyun mujhse ye sawaal puchhta hai,
Fir bhi sunle tu keuski wafaa mujhe fir hi chahiye agar vo khushi se mujhe apne saath dekhta hai,
Main nahi chahti vo kya chahta hai,
Bas itna janti hun ke mera dil bas ye hi dua mangta hai,
ke vo mere saath rhe ya mujhse judaa,
uski aankh mein koi aansu na aaye aye mere khudaa,
Meri ye maang puri krde zindagi bhar tujhe pujungi,
par bas itna yaad rakhnatujhse pehle hamesha main usko pujungi,
Rabb ne kahaa us khushnaseeb ka naam to bta,
Maine kahaa tujhe jaise nahi pta uska pta,
Vo bola pta haifir bhi tujhse sun na chahta tha,
Teri dua mein kya teri zindagi mein usse basana chahta tha,
Maine kahaa zindagi mein to vo kab ka bas chuka hai,
Bas ab itna krdeuske hothon ki hassi dede jo shayad tu gayab kr chuka hai,
usne kahaa kamliyeuski khushi uske paas hai,
uske sakun ke liye itni dua karegi to mujhe bhi kehna hoga ki mera aashirwaad uske saath hai,
Ye sunkar main chalne lagi to rabb ne mujhe roka,
Vo kehta ke tujhe kuchh dene ka bhi to de mujhe ek moka,
Maine kahaa agar tu kuchh aur dena chahta hai to itna krde,
Uske gharwaalon aur mere gharwalon ka jeevan sukhon se bharde,
Vo bola jhalli teri mang puri ki,
Ab kuch aur na kehna nhi to fir kahegi ke bhagwan ki aankh kaise bhar gyi,
Maine kahaa teri aankh bhari main fir bhi dekh skti hun,
Lekin uske aur ape maa baap ke maathe ki ek bhi shikanj main bardasht nahi kr skti hun,
Ye kehkar main vahaan se aa gyi,
Aur man hi man mein ye kahaa ke in kuchh logon ko khush dekh kr mujhe lagega ke maine duniya paa li,
Mujhe fir se ek awaaz aayi,
ke teri duayon ki vajah se usne, uske aur tere ghar waalon ne saaari khushiyan paa li,
Maine rabb ka shukriya kiya aur kahaa ab aur kuchh nahi mangugi,
 Par ye dua aur ters ye hi aashirwaaad main saari umar chahungi....

JEENE KI VAJAh..

Phir main vahaan pahunch gyi jahaan se chali thi,
Phir main vaise hi tanha khadi hun jaise pehle tanha thi,
Dil bharaa hua hai par ro nahi skti,
Aankhein aansuyon se nam hain par beh nahi skti,
jaanti hun jo hua kismat ka likha tha,
par ye sab maine rabb se kab maanga tha,
Haan ab ek vaada hai apne aap se,
ke koi bhi aisa karan na dungi jis karan aansu bahe in aankhon se,
Fir kisi ko is zindagi mein laane ki galati na hogi,
shayad iski vajah ye hai ke uski yaadein bhool ke bhi mujhse judaa na hogi,
chalo is gum ko bhi saath leke jee lungi,
kyunki main jeena chahun ya nahi pr meri zimedariyan mujhe marne na degi,
han ab main jeeyungi par sirf kuchh logon ke liye,
han main saansein bharungi pr sirf logon se kiye huye vaade pure krne ke liye,
ye koi maane ya na maane,
par ab asli mein badal gye hain zindagi jeene ke mayne,
ye rasta jis par main chali hun main tey karungi,
par mere jeene ki vjh sirf mere maa baap aur unse kiya hua vaada hi hogi....